Posted on October 17, 2019
by Nicole V
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Carolyn I made the decision to go back to school when my son was 4 months old. When I completed high school 16 years ago I went to the same school I am in now to try and do something with my life. My… Continue Reading “The End of Childhood”
Category: anger, Bulimia, Coming of Age, Drugs/Narcotics, entitlement, opiates, Prescription pills, SobrietyTags: 49ers, Addiction, Afterlife, Alcoholism, Anxiety, Binge Disorder, Bulimia, Bulimic, car accident, childhood, compassion, Control, darkness, Death, Depression, drug, drug addict, drug addiction, drugs, drunk driver, Eating Disorder, ed, ed recovery, end, ending, family, feeling, feelings, football, granddaughter, growing up, help, hospital, life changing moment, Marijuana, pain, Patterns, Personal Journey, Pot, rams, recover, Recovery, red flags, Relationships, sadness, Self Care, Self Harm, Self Love, Trauma, triggered
Posted on July 28, 2019
by Nicole V
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The Two Selves: My Work This post is dedicated to helping me work through an understanding I have been studying. I have a long and arduous relationship to other people’s depression and if I don’t go towards it to understand it then there will… Continue Reading “Death in Recovery Part 3: Other’s Depression”
Category: anger, Bulimia, Coming of Age, Drugs/Narcotics, entitlement, Forgiveness, Nowhere Man, opiates, Prescription pills, Treatment, VictimTags: aa, accountable, Addiction, Afterlife, Anxiety, Binge Disorder, ca, california, care, character defects, Child, clean, clean and sober, Codependency, Codependent Relationships, Control, Death, Depression, Eating Disorder, Evolution, false self, family, feeling, feelings, Food disorder, Friendship, Guilt, heart, honesty, lonely, lonesome, love, Marijuana, mind, na, odaat, Patterns, personal choice, Personal Journey, Photo Restoration, Photography, recover, Recovery, red flags, Relationships, resentment, Self Care, Self Harm, Self Love, Shame, soberaf, sobriety, Sonoma County, Trauma, treatment, truth, victim, we do recover
Posted on July 3, 2019
by Nicole V
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My Problem With Pot After the passing of my friend’s mother I had a period of mourning for her. A dull ache that I had one less person on the same team as me. That pang of disappointment visits me when I think of… Continue Reading “Death in Recovery Part 2: Pot, Dogs, & Friendship”
Category: 12 Steps, Bulimia, Coming of Age, Drugs/Narcotics, Forgiveness, opiates, Prescription pills, Sobriety, TreatmentTags: 420, 9th step, aa, addict, Addiction, Alcoholism, Amends, Animals, Anxiety, california, Child, Codependent Relationships, Control, Death, Depression, drug addict, drug addiction, Eating Disorder, Evolution, Friendship, Guilt, MA, Marijuana, na, odaat, Patterns, personal choice, Personal Journey, pets, Pot, recover, Recovery, recovery birthday, Relationships, santa rosa, Self Care, Self Harm, Self Love, Shame, soberaf, sobriety, Sobriety Birthday, Sonoma County, survival, treatment, we do recover
Posted on April 29, 2019
by Nicole V
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Over Easter weekend I photographed my family and our kids spending time together. My grandmother treated us all to a 4 night stay in Bodega Bay, California. We rented a beach house next to a golf course and every person who attended brought a… Continue Reading “Celebrating Family: A photoshoot”
Category: adobe, Bulimia, Coming of Age, Forgiveness, opiates, photoshop, SobrietyTags: 10 years, addict, Addiction, Afterlife, alcohol, Alcoholism, bay, beach, beach house, Bodega Bay, Bulimia, canon, canon rebel, clean and sober, coast, coastal, Control, Death, drug, drug addict, drug addiction, drugs, easter, Eating Disorder, editing, Evolution, family, Food disorder, Friendship, love, memories, Motherhood, ocean, Personal Journey, Photo Restoration, Photography, Recovery, Relationships, Self Care, Self Love, sobriety, Sonoma Coastline, Sonoma County, we do recover
Posted on April 14, 2019
by Nicole V
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A few months ago a friend I love died. Then two months later my buddy put his dog down. And two days after that another friend died suddenly. All three of these deaths were impactful and I felt the need to process here on… Continue Reading “Death In Recovery: Three Deaths & Three Lessons, Part 1”
Category: Bulimia, Drugs/Narcotics, SobrietyTags: addict, Addiction, Afterlife, Binge Disorder, birth, Bulimia, Bulimic, clean and sober, Death, drug addict, drug addiction, Eating Disorder, Evolution, Friendship, love, Motherhood, natural disaster, odaat, Personal Journey, prison, Recovery, Relationships, Self Care, Self Love, soberaf, sobriety, we do recover, wildfire
Posted on March 30, 2019
by Nicole V
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Ten years ago, my life was very shallow and very out of control. On this day a decade ago I was on an airporter bus on my way to Tucson, Arizona, with my small bag of luggage, a huge bundle of letters and mementos… Continue Reading “One Decade Clean and Sober & Inventory on Bulimia”
Category: 12 Steps, Bulimia, cs5711, Drugs/Narcotics, Sobriety, TreatmentTags: addict, Addiction, Alcoholism, Anorexia, Anxiety, binge, Binge Disorder, Bulimic, Control, drug addict, drug addiction, Eating Disorder, Personal Journey, purge, recover, Recovery, Relationships, Self Care, Self Harm, Self Love, sobriety, Sobriety Birthday, we do recover
Posted on March 22, 2019
by Nicole V
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If you are an addict struggling with imagining what it would take to get clean, you’ve probably heard people talking about hitting rock bottom. I wanted to share with you the day that I consider to be my rock bottom because it was the… Continue Reading “10 Years Ago: This ‘ol Opiate Addict’s Rock Bottom”
Category: 12 Steps, Bulimia, Coming of Age, cs5711, Drugs/Narcotics, Forgiveness, opiates, Sobriety, TreatmentTags: 10 years, 12 steps, 4th step, Addiction, alcohol, Alcoholism, clean and sober, Codependency, Codependent Relationships, Depression, drug addict, drug addiction, Eating Disorder, fear, IV drugs, Personal Journey, Recovery, Relationships, resentment, Self Care, Self Harm, Self Love, soberaf, sobriety, Sobriety Birthday, Suicide, treatment
Posted on March 16, 2019
by Nicole V
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The Illness From Hell Over this last week my son somehow contracted a fun little stomach bug resembling the Norovirus. Around 8pm, an hour after his bedtime, I heard his violently coughing and that unmistakable sound of his projectile vomiting all over himself and… Continue Reading “The Adventure: Who is in Control?”
Category: Bulimia, Coming of Age, cs5711, VictimTags: Acting Out, Addiction, Anxiety, Bulimia, Child, Control, Eating Disorder, Food disorder, Guilt, Patterns, Personal Journey, Recovery, Self Care, Self Harm, Self Love, Shame, The Victim
Posted on February 28, 2019
by Nicole V
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My name is Nicole and I have been in recovery from addiction to narcotics since March 30th of 2009. In about a month, on 3/30/19, I will be celebrating 10 years clean and sober time. The impending celebration is one of the reasons I… Continue Reading “Welcome! Let me introduce myself…”
Category: 12 Steps, Bulimia, cs5711, Drugs/Narcotics, opiates, SLE, Sobriety, TreatmentTags: addict, Addiction, Anxiety, Bulimic, Depression, drug addict, drug addiction, Eating Disorder, odaat, Personal Journey, Recovery, Self Care, Self Harm, Self Love, soberaf, sobriety, treatment, we do recover
