Posted on July 28, 2019
by Nicole V
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The Two Selves: My Work This post is dedicated to helping me work through an understanding I have been studying. I have a long and arduous relationship to other people’s depression and if I don’t go towards it to understand it then there will… Continue Reading “Death in Recovery Part 3: Other’s Depression”
Category: anger, Bulimia, Coming of Age, Drugs/Narcotics, entitlement, Forgiveness, Nowhere Man, opiates, Prescription pills, Treatment, VictimTags: aa, accountable, Addiction, Afterlife, Anxiety, Binge Disorder, ca, california, care, character defects, Child, clean, clean and sober, Codependency, Codependent Relationships, Control, Death, Depression, Eating Disorder, Evolution, false self, family, feeling, feelings, Food disorder, Friendship, Guilt, heart, honesty, lonely, lonesome, love, Marijuana, mind, na, odaat, Patterns, personal choice, Personal Journey, Photo Restoration, Photography, recover, Recovery, red flags, Relationships, resentment, Self Care, Self Harm, Self Love, Shame, soberaf, sobriety, Sonoma County, Trauma, treatment, truth, victim, we do recover
Posted on July 3, 2019
by Nicole V
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My Problem With Pot After the passing of my friend’s mother I had a period of mourning for her. A dull ache that I had one less person on the same team as me. That pang of disappointment visits me when I think of… Continue Reading “Death in Recovery Part 2: Pot, Dogs, & Friendship”
Category: 12 Steps, Bulimia, Coming of Age, Drugs/Narcotics, Forgiveness, opiates, Prescription pills, Sobriety, TreatmentTags: 420, 9th step, aa, addict, Addiction, Alcoholism, Amends, Animals, Anxiety, california, Child, Codependent Relationships, Control, Death, Depression, drug addict, drug addiction, Eating Disorder, Evolution, Friendship, Guilt, MA, Marijuana, na, odaat, Patterns, personal choice, Personal Journey, pets, Pot, recover, Recovery, recovery birthday, Relationships, santa rosa, Self Care, Self Harm, Self Love, Shame, soberaf, sobriety, Sobriety Birthday, Sonoma County, survival, treatment, we do recover
Posted on May 16, 2019
by Nicole V
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My first clean and sober relationship A few years ago I got a call from my buddy in recovery, Aaron, asking if I had seen our mutual friend, we’ll call him Andy. Andy and I dated for 7 months when I first got into… Continue Reading “The 12th Step Call: Finding the Light When Darkness Surrounds You”
Category: 12 Steps, Coming of Age, Drugs/Narcotics, Motherhood In Recovery, SLE, Sobriety, TreatmentTags: 12 steps, 12steps, 12th step, aa, addict, Addiction, Alcoholism, california, care, choice, choosing, Codependent Relationships, Death, Depression, drug, drug addict, drug addiction, drugs, Evolution, first love, Friendship, gratitude, help, IV drugs, love, motel, Motherhood, na, odaat, personal choice, Personal Journey, reaching out, Recovery, Relationships, Self Care, Self Harm, Self Love, soberaf, sobriety, Sobriety Birthday, Sonoma County, Suicide, suicude, super 8, super8, we do recover
Posted on March 30, 2019
by Nicole V
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Ten years ago, my life was very shallow and very out of control. On this day a decade ago I was on an airporter bus on my way to Tucson, Arizona, with my small bag of luggage, a huge bundle of letters and mementos… Continue Reading “One Decade Clean and Sober & Inventory on Bulimia”
Category: 12 Steps, Bulimia, cs5711, Drugs/Narcotics, Sobriety, TreatmentTags: addict, Addiction, Alcoholism, Anorexia, Anxiety, binge, Binge Disorder, Bulimic, Control, drug addict, drug addiction, Eating Disorder, Personal Journey, purge, recover, Recovery, Relationships, Self Care, Self Harm, Self Love, sobriety, Sobriety Birthday, we do recover
Posted on March 22, 2019
by Nicole V
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If you are an addict struggling with imagining what it would take to get clean, you’ve probably heard people talking about hitting rock bottom. I wanted to share with you the day that I consider to be my rock bottom because it was the… Continue Reading “10 Years Ago: This ‘ol Opiate Addict’s Rock Bottom”
Category: 12 Steps, Bulimia, Coming of Age, cs5711, Drugs/Narcotics, Forgiveness, opiates, Sobriety, TreatmentTags: 10 years, 12 steps, 4th step, Addiction, alcohol, Alcoholism, clean and sober, Codependency, Codependent Relationships, Depression, drug addict, drug addiction, Eating Disorder, fear, IV drugs, Personal Journey, Recovery, Relationships, resentment, Self Care, Self Harm, Self Love, soberaf, sobriety, Sobriety Birthday, Suicide, treatment
Posted on March 8, 2019
by Nicole V
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This blog has become a tool for me to take a hard look back at what I have done in my addiction and who I am becoming post addiction. It is like journaling but it’s bigger than that. I get to go into these… Continue Reading “Making Amends”
Category: 12 Steps, cs5711, Drugs/Narcotics, Forgiveness, Sobriety, TreatmentTags: addict, Addiction, Amends, Anxiety, Codependency, Codependent Relationships, Depression, fear, Guilt, Personal Journey, Recovery, Relationships, Self Care, Self Harm, Self Love, Shame
Posted on March 2, 2019
by Nicole V
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What follows is the very beginnings of my addiction and how I co-created some of my codependent relationships. You may be on this blog looking for support with a loved one and wondering why seemingly normal people act out in obsessive and manipulative behaviors… Continue Reading “Codependent Relationships and Addiction”
Category: Coming of Age, Drugs/Narcotics, opiates, TreatmentTags: 12 steps, addict, Addiction, Anxiety, Bulimic, Codependency, Codependent Relationships, Depression, drug addict, drug addiction, first love, high school, Personal Journey, Recovery, Relationships, Self Harm, sobriety, we do recover
Posted on February 28, 2019
by Nicole V
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My name is Nicole and I have been in recovery from addiction to narcotics since March 30th of 2009. In about a month, on 3/30/19, I will be celebrating 10 years clean and sober time. The impending celebration is one of the reasons I… Continue Reading “Welcome! Let me introduce myself…”
Category: 12 Steps, Bulimia, cs5711, Drugs/Narcotics, opiates, SLE, Sobriety, TreatmentTags: addict, Addiction, Anxiety, Bulimic, Depression, drug addict, drug addiction, Eating Disorder, odaat, Personal Journey, Recovery, Self Care, Self Harm, Self Love, soberaf, sobriety, treatment, we do recover
