Posted on December 30, 2019
by Nicole V
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Every year my spiritual family chooses words that reflect things they’d like to study or overcome in the new year. In previous years my words have meant a great deal to my self study. Past words include: Maturity: Growing up in order to be… Continue Reading “The New Year: Never Abandoning Myself Again”
Category: Coming of Age, Forgiveness, Sobriety, VictimTags: 2019, 2020, abandonment, addict, Addiction, Amends, Anxiety, change, Child, christmas, Codependency, Codependent Relationships, Communication, Control, Death, drug addict, drug addiction, Eating Disorder, ed recovery, Evolution, Friendship, immaturity, impeccable, Intention, intentions, maturity, Motherhood, new year, Patterns, personal choice, Personal Journey, Photography, prisioner, Recovery, recovery birthday, red flags, Relationships, resentment, resolution, Self Care, Self Harm, Self Love, self study, Sobriety Birthday, spiritual, Spirituality, study, Trauma, victim, victimization, warrior, we do recover
Posted on July 28, 2019
by Nicole V
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The Two Selves: My Work This post is dedicated to helping me work through an understanding I have been studying. I have a long and arduous relationship to other people’s depression and if I don’t go towards it to understand it then there will… Continue Reading “Death in Recovery Part 3: Other’s Depression”
Category: anger, Bulimia, Coming of Age, Drugs/Narcotics, entitlement, Forgiveness, Nowhere Man, opiates, Prescription pills, Treatment, VictimTags: aa, accountable, Addiction, Afterlife, Anxiety, Binge Disorder, ca, california, care, character defects, Child, clean, clean and sober, Codependency, Codependent Relationships, Control, Death, Depression, Eating Disorder, Evolution, false self, family, feeling, feelings, Food disorder, Friendship, Guilt, heart, honesty, lonely, lonesome, love, Marijuana, mind, na, odaat, Patterns, personal choice, Personal Journey, Photo Restoration, Photography, recover, Recovery, red flags, Relationships, resentment, Self Care, Self Harm, Self Love, Shame, soberaf, sobriety, Sonoma County, Trauma, treatment, truth, victim, we do recover
Posted on July 3, 2019
by Nicole V
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My Problem With Pot After the passing of my friend’s mother I had a period of mourning for her. A dull ache that I had one less person on the same team as me. That pang of disappointment visits me when I think of… Continue Reading “Death in Recovery Part 2: Pot, Dogs, & Friendship”
Category: 12 Steps, Bulimia, Coming of Age, Drugs/Narcotics, Forgiveness, opiates, Prescription pills, Sobriety, TreatmentTags: 420, 9th step, aa, addict, Addiction, Alcoholism, Amends, Animals, Anxiety, california, Child, Codependent Relationships, Control, Death, Depression, drug addict, drug addiction, Eating Disorder, Evolution, Friendship, Guilt, MA, Marijuana, na, odaat, Patterns, personal choice, Personal Journey, pets, Pot, recover, Recovery, recovery birthday, Relationships, santa rosa, Self Care, Self Harm, Self Love, Shame, soberaf, sobriety, Sobriety Birthday, Sonoma County, survival, treatment, we do recover
Posted on April 29, 2019
by Nicole V
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Over Easter weekend I photographed my family and our kids spending time together. My grandmother treated us all to a 4 night stay in Bodega Bay, California. We rented a beach house next to a golf course and every person who attended brought a… Continue Reading “Celebrating Family: A photoshoot”
Category: adobe, Bulimia, Coming of Age, Forgiveness, opiates, photoshop, SobrietyTags: 10 years, addict, Addiction, Afterlife, alcohol, Alcoholism, bay, beach, beach house, Bodega Bay, Bulimia, canon, canon rebel, clean and sober, coast, coastal, Control, Death, drug, drug addict, drug addiction, drugs, easter, Eating Disorder, editing, Evolution, family, Food disorder, Friendship, love, memories, Motherhood, ocean, Personal Journey, Photo Restoration, Photography, Recovery, Relationships, Self Care, Self Love, sobriety, Sonoma Coastline, Sonoma County, we do recover
Posted on March 22, 2019
by Nicole V
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If you are an addict struggling with imagining what it would take to get clean, you’ve probably heard people talking about hitting rock bottom. I wanted to share with you the day that I consider to be my rock bottom because it was the… Continue Reading “10 Years Ago: This ‘ol Opiate Addict’s Rock Bottom”
Category: 12 Steps, Bulimia, Coming of Age, cs5711, Drugs/Narcotics, Forgiveness, opiates, Sobriety, TreatmentTags: 10 years, 12 steps, 4th step, Addiction, alcohol, Alcoholism, clean and sober, Codependency, Codependent Relationships, Depression, drug addict, drug addiction, Eating Disorder, fear, IV drugs, Personal Journey, Recovery, Relationships, resentment, Self Care, Self Harm, Self Love, soberaf, sobriety, Sobriety Birthday, Suicide, treatment
Posted on March 8, 2019
by Nicole V
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This blog has become a tool for me to take a hard look back at what I have done in my addiction and who I am becoming post addiction. It is like journaling but it’s bigger than that. I get to go into these… Continue Reading “Making Amends”
Category: 12 Steps, cs5711, Drugs/Narcotics, Forgiveness, Sobriety, TreatmentTags: addict, Addiction, Amends, Anxiety, Codependency, Codependent Relationships, Depression, fear, Guilt, Personal Journey, Recovery, Relationships, Self Care, Self Harm, Self Love, Shame
